Exam time-

My exam should be start from 15 april and finish on 25 may,
So I am very busy in study,
I want to get first ranke in exam, but it may be very difficult because I am alredy 5o mark back from topper, and result will be anal total of half yearly and qurters,
So I am very tensunised,,,,,,,,,,
My school also give me a scholar if I get 80 % gross total mark in exam, and uske liye mujhe final me 92% mark lane honge , fil hal to ye very tuff lag raha hai,,,,,,,,
So I work harder more harder
My shedule now a day is very busy
I rise 6 a.m. doing study two hour

Doing potty, brush and bath etc. within one hour then take a brake fast,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Go to school with suhani
Come back from school 1 o’ clock
Un do my school uniform take a little lunch,,,,,,,,,
I mostly take my lunch in without cloth (in only under bears) because in this I feel more comfort,,, and also at that time no body is present in my family ,,,, so I remains alone in my house at that time so I can do it,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
After this watch TV. And take makeup or others which I want to do like waxenning, here remove washing clothes, nail polish etc.
Go to Mahesh sir class at 2:45 pm.
Come back at 4:30 or 5 p.m.
Than take a brake for 45 minutes with chatting on phone or chat with Gautam or jyotsna
Than at 5:45 p.m. I go to Suhani’s house for Manisha madam class and after class I mostly stay at Suhani’s house for extra study and enjoy ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Approx 7 or 7:30 I come back
Than help my mom for dinner, watching TV. , dancing or any other enjoyment with our family,,,,,,,
Approximate at 9 p.m. we take dinner,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
And after this if I want to study or teach my brother and sister,,,,,,,,,
And than we sleep approximate at 10 p.m.
So that is a very tight and busy schedule
I think after 25 April I become free
Although I theft some time for net or computer with in this tight schedule so I come here,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
I think Sunday is very bed for me,, at Sunday I have a bore ,,,,,,
Mostly bed thinghs like love, boy friend, flurt or dating come in my mind ,,,,,,,,,,,
So it was ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Ravina-

Ravina is most beautiful and reach girl, greeter than all my class,
She is my second best friend; we have very different relationship with each other,
At front of her I feel very poverty and uncomforted, so I always keep a distance with her,
No doughty I have a harassment and insignificant at front of him so I have a jealous with him,,,,,,,,,,,,
Before five year when my parent not parches my present flat, we was never of Ravina’s villa
Which is made very glorious, that have a big garden many servant, swimming pool and every thing,
We were on rent near this bungalow,

Un dinon in my friend circle that was famus ki Ravina apni potty bhi servent se dhulati hai
And on this talk Ravina become very irritated and he want my favor so I always favor him ki aisa kuch nahi hai’’’’’’’’’’’’’’

Ravinas dad is a first class business man of our city
He has stone crasser, mineral water, property dealing, and farm house business
We are friend since this small age, that time we are very innocent,
And Ravina ke dad ke kahne par hi dad ne mera admission uske costly school me karwaya tha so I was very thankful about that,
That time I was only 8 year old, and Ravina was 6 month elder than me but we was in same class, Ravina’s brother Aswani was 20 years at that time.
So we are three good friends,
Mujhe ek gandi aadat thi I theft Ravina’s precious think,
Mai uske koi bhi cheese chura leti thi,,,,,,,,,,
So sorry but that was childhood
Many time my parent catch me and return these goods,
And punished me and anger on me,
But Ravinas nature was very cute she always protect me and sad, falls to my parents that ki use ne mujhe dee thi,
So I feel very guilty agenst her, since that time, wo aaj bhi mujhe aapni best friend maanti hai,
I help him about study,
Before five year meri uske brother Aswani (Anant) se good friend ship thi, he was 20 years old at that time and very good natured, she always carry two gift one for me and second for Ravina.
He was my chess and cycle guru
He train me in cycling and chess,,,,,,,,,
So we also good three friend,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
I not like Anant’s this habit, ki bo aapne thinks ki tariff karta tha
Kabhi bhi jab bhi koi prisios cloth, watch, shoos, or etc laya to proudly mujhe dikha tat ha and I alwas usme ko kami bata kar use teese karti thi,

On this topic we fight very much

Whenever I do the work opposite Anant he always assault me, that he rape me,,,
At that time I not know the sense of rape, and one time I ask to Anant bhaiya and he एक्सप्लेन
ki karwa kar dekho tabhi samajh aayega ,
and I fear very much about this nonmsence rape,,
I gauss that ki Anant mere kapde utar kar mujhe kiss karega that was rape,,,,
That time Anant was 20 and I and Ravina was 8 years old,,,,,,,,
So he always play with our like a doll,,,,,,,,,,,,
Jab kabhi we dance in close room or do any bed thing like change our cloth,, or play mom-dad , he enter force fully in room ,,,,,,and want to know every thing about me and Ravina,,,,,,
He was a bed boy??????? But also a good boy…………..i can not desided that he was a good boy or bed boy
He always very carefull about our,,,,,,,,,,
Exhibition visit karni ho, film dekhni ho, kuch purchase karna ho , we need the help of Anant so he recover that’s cost……….
Last time meri use bahut jabardast ladai hui thi,,,,,,
He bought a BENHUSAN’S very costly shirt and ask mi kaisi hai 1000 ki hai
And I say derty, disgusting, I feel vomiting on this colur so he punch me on face,,,,,,,
Mujhe bahut jada gussa aagya and I say him- sssallleeeee kutte,
That word more tempered him,,,,,,
And than Anant ne meri bahut bura haal kiya tha………
He catch me very tight and say- aaj tere ko batata hun,,,,,,,,
Yahan tak thik tha , that was only fun , but after this he behave very bed,,,,
He try to remove my skirt,,,,,,,,,,, I was shocked on this movement,,,,,,,
After some force he success to remove my skirt, and he caught me in his legs and again try to remove my shirt,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
I was almost in beeping, and he laugh,,,,,,,,,
He kissed me every where,,,,,,,,,
Tab tak Ravina bhi room me aa gai and he forsake me, but he continue provoking me in presence of Ravina.
So I was very fear,,,,,,
He again assault me and Ravina that remains a caution in future other wise he rape me and Ravina again
And that was a half rape…………and he see me totally nude ……..and every thing of my ……… etc
Many years after this accident I feared in my group ki Ravina ye baat kahin meri sari saheli ko na bata de and this topic also increase the distance between our……….

After this bed behave Anant again and again say me sorry but I never give him clean chit,,,,,,,,,
He give me many donation, gift but after this I never talk with him,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Uncle ne uski bahut pitai bhi lagai thi,,,,,,
And he realize his fault,,,,,,,,,,,,
At last he show me and Ravina the HARIPOTAR MOVI, and give a very excellent dinner party, and after this we become again a good friend, he promise me that he not to do this again in future,,,
At end he gives me a very cute teddy…
Which is my favorite teddy I named which
SKUBI…॥?

Jo mere pass abhi bhi hai
And I love it very much …….. Many days we sleep together
Wo mujhe Anant ke sath spend kiye acche dino ki yad dilate hai and use dekh kar mujhe anant bhaiya ki yadd aati hai
Unhi diono my parent purchase this new house and we forsake this house,,,,,,,,,
After some month Ravina say me ki Aswani Austreliya M.B.A ki study ke liye chala gaya and,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Use ache aur bure
Bed and good boy ke bare me kya kahun

He gives me a lesion of life

My relation with my dad -

Is something wrong???????????\
Or its right???????
I am more comfort with dad than mom’’’
Mom have not time for kids so I mostly discuss with dad , and he always help and love all his kids and I know he love me more than other two,,,,,,,,,,
Although I am not his real but he give me more,,,,,,, and not realize any feeling in me,
When ever I tired or sick,,,,, he care me,,,
He massage my lags and head,,,,,, when I want,,,
Mostly during period I want there emotional love and touch,
Since child hood he clothing me, bath me,,,,,,,,,
Wo kahte hain chote me main proper eat nahi kart thi than he alwas mujhe good me bithakar khana khilate the,,,,,,
So mostly daily work, I learn by dad,,,,,,,,,,
Yahan tak ki after changing of teenage I need help from dad for bearing bra,,,,,,
Ek- do saal tak myjhe bra ke hock unhi se lagbane pad te the……
But after this I learn automatically how bear bra by self!! Without any help,,,,,
And I also do every thing for dad,,,,,,,,,,,
Unhe tea banwane me, hair die lagwane and head massage karwane me meri help chahiye hoti thi,,,,,,
So I do this with pleaser,,,,,,
So our friend ship was for mutual benefit,,,,,,,,,
That was past………
now i am not a ki
नो ay I feel he care and love me more thअ n pअst,,,,,,,,,
He always completed my all demand with out any asking and excuse,,,,
In morning mai jaldi me rahti hun so I can not wash my clothes,, and mostly I use there bath room so he always wash my daily clothes ,,,,,,
Although I again and again say him not to do this,,,,,,,
But he happy for doing this,,,,,,,,,
One day that was a warm Sunday I was in sleep during midday,,,,,,,,
I feel a touch on my whole body,,,
Some body touched and press my breast and legs,,,
That was dad,,,,,,,,
I remain unknown, and doing drama as I sleep,,,,,,,,,
He explore my legs from mini skirt, and undo my tee-shirt button,,,,,
And than he give me a head- massage, his fingers ran over my forehead, in a gentle caress, his finger slowly caressed my hair, my forhead and cheek one by one,
After this he licked and sucked my lips
Brushing it fom one to other end,
After he moved on to my neck and after breasts,,,,,,,
It was enough I take a movement before this he back and covered my body and went out from my room,
I can not toke any decision what I do,,,,,
When I come out from room, he watc TV. And smile with me,,,,,,
So I feel exciting and also fear about that,,,,,,,
But that time I have not any complain and enjoy this new things
After some day it happen again
That was a night when mom was out of station for her office work and I sleep with my brother and sister,
I was in dark sleep when I feel him again near me,,,,,,
He care fully, kissed between my breast, I laying innocently and,
He unhooked my bodice and tightly held both in his hand and licked and sucked,,,,
I feel very excited pleasure,,,,,
And than he try to slid down my panty but I stopped him by caught my panty strictly in hand,
Next day I not complain dad, what he doing last night with me.
We not talk any thing……
After coming from school…………..
he say sorry to me for last night and I say okkkkkkk
Darasal mujhe unka behavior bura nahi laga tha,,,,,
I thought he remember my mom and missing him, feel alone, so he comes ……..
But next day again this happen,,,,,,,,,
I was in deep sleep so I not notice that he remove my mostly cloth, I have a bed habits to sleep in bra-panty only , so he stretch my panty very low on knee and also undid my bra and I was mostly nude in darkness,,,,,,,,,,,,
He massage, licked and sucked my holly body blindly,,,,,,,,,,,,
I feel very nerves , and harassment
Next day I warn to dad very strictly,,,,, and say clearly if he do this again I complain to mom,,,,,,
And they again say excuse and sorry again and again,,,,,,,,,,,,
So I remains like nothing happen but I advise him not to do this again,,,,,
In evening he give me a very stylish jeans and shirt in gift which I demanded him since many days,,,,,,,
So I think well
All is well…………..
Next day I discus with Suhani about this accident and she also say me, nothing happen,
Enjoy life and she also told me a surprise that – Abhinash bhai also do this with him many time at night when ever her parents was not in house,,, and she also enjoy this and never complain,
Yeeesss but whenever she blackmails Abhinash bhai for treat and other object on the cost of this,,,
And it is not wrong,
She told me that all males are having same stupid thing, they want to love every girl,,, that’s a weakness of mails and this is not a serious matter ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
She say Abhinash want to see my private parts and all time interested to see me in nude,,,,,,,,,,,
One time I fulfill his desire and after this I strictly stop him to do this,,,,,,,,,,,,,
So life is going on this way not have any hard rule and remains constant for situations,
So she sagest me nothing tell to your mother and keep a good relation with our dad and after all he is not my real dad,,,,,,,,
I was agree with Suhani
So I think mujhe iss batt ka issue nahi bana chahiye,,

Dirty dream

To day I see a very disgusting, dirty, hot dream………
I was with Ansuman, on his bike, totally nude, and only in inner bear, and he runs his bike very fast to ward our school and I shamed.
After reached at school every girl see me with laugh and than Ansuman give me his jacked, but in this my foot is already nude so I try to cover that with my hand,
Than I see we are alone in Radhika’s house where Ansuman again remove his jacked from me and than he kissed me every where with hunger and I say him please stop ppllllls stop.
Than I see radhika also entered in room he bear full clothe and she say me ki maine uske brother ko cheat kiya hai
And than Radhika and Ansuman kissed to each other
Than we become friend
In next seen I see – I and Radhika only in room and kissing to each other , suddenly she anger on me and hold me tightly and Ansuman try to remove my all clothe , and try to see my nudity,,,,,,,,,,,
Than I see ki Ansuman and Radhika mujhe ghar tak chodne aaye
Than I rise
So disgusting
I was very shamed on this stupid dream…………
I feel liquidity in my panty so I confused that was a MC but that was not a time of my MC so I see in my panty ,
yeeeesssssss I was right that was not a MC but a white collard liquid so what is this,,,,,,,,,,
I thought this is another change in my women body so I decided, tomorrow I discus that with mom, or Sangita aunty, or Suhani, but Suhani is also innocent like me,,,,,,,,,,
And mom has not any time for discus with me.
In last I decided to discus this with Sangita aunty, she is right choice for this topic
I look at Gautam and Jyotsna,,,,, both was in deep sleep , so I become relaxed, and go to bathroom for urine and drink water,
Than I again try to sleep, that was 1’oclock, I have not sleep, than I hug Jotsna I hold tightly to Jyotsna and try to sleep,
I was with sorrow
So I see this kind of dream, I not know why I see this all thing